Laura blogs over at Laura’s Light. This post was originally posted on her blog on January 22, 2016.
I feel so lonely. And… I don’t know what to do.
Does a butterfly feel lonely in the cocoon? Or does it have butterfly conversion support group meetings?
I don’t know. But I wish I had them. I wish I had someone at my beck and call, people who would come whenever I needed them: to say hello or to just sit next to me and be. But it doesn’t work like that. People have their own lives, their own things going on. And they can’t always come. It feels like they can’t more often than not these days.
Or maybe I just don’t know how to ask.
I don’t. I know that. I don’t want to let myself need people, to not be ok.
But if we’re honest this butterfly has gone through a hell of a lot of shit this year. And she doesn’t know what to do. And she needs people. She just doesn’t know how to ask.